Taking my own advice...even when I don't want it

Today My SWEET little 7 year old, Bry had a choice to make.... she needed to go to her room, or sit in time out on the stool in the kitchen, after an "incident" with her older sister. Her answer ( for almost an hour ) was a strong "NEITHER"
I tried to  explain that "neither" was not an option... a choice had to be made. It was not the smoothest of afternoons but a choice was finally made (the rule is...if you don't choose than I have to choose for you) She took her time out. :)
Tomorrow I am taking a "sick day" and sadly I wish it was the flu or a cold, but it is my body letting me know that my "break" is coming to a close, with a nice little reminder that I am still chronically ill.
So as I lay on the couch after sending the last kid to bed...I had my DUH and Ah Ha moment Simultaneously ... I have been pondering my options... Do I go forward eating what I want and take advantage of every last second with food.... or do I begin to cut things out of my diet and prolong, well whatever is heading my way. TRUST ME it sounds like it should be a DUH..... but I have enjoyed having dinner with my family, and bbq's with friends. And as I sat there feeling rather ill and trying to decide.... My own words came hauntingly back at me....neither is not an option. I want neither... I want to keep enjoying food ( well... enjoy eating it, not so much enjoying the pain it is causing) So along with the swollen lymph nodes, the easy bruising, the lightheadedness that is joining my growing list of returning cast members for the sequel of "My Happy life as a chronically ill patient" I choose to cut the food and HOPEFULLY feel better longer. I obviously won't cut ALL food until we get to that place medically.... but tomorrow begins a change.... I have my juice boxes of elemental "juice".  It is not a FUN place to be right now... in this body...BUT I had a GREAT SUMMER, and it's not over YET! The difficult thing is that I KNOW what is coming... and I don't want it, that being what it is... I also know what is coming and I have done it before, I have blazed the trails and now I know which ones to take. The GREAT thing is that I had a BREAK...and I am grateful for every second I get to ride on this ride ( It ain't over yet)
A little nervous to post this...BUT I promised myself in the beginning that I would. I am still me... I am still Strong... and I can still live my life... no pity please...because I SO GOT THIS, even if I don't want it ;)